No New Car

Brought the Mazda to Warman to show my dad and it was too loud when I hit 110. Since I'm hoping to do lots of subbing and that'll probably mean lots of highway time, I need a car that will please me there. I did test drive an '05 Focus hatchback that was a lot quieter. So I feel a little more knowledgeable and hopeful that I can find something with a better price and feel.

I am now anxiously awaiting my renewed teacher certificate since one of the teachers I talked to on Monday asked me to sub this week. I'm simply not allowed until the certificate is renewed. Ah well. Something to look forward to. Maybe next week. Just three days a week will let me quit at Prairie Meats. That doesn't sound like much, but we'll have to wait and see how it goes. ~fingers crossed~

New Car

I hope to buy a new-to-me car tomorrow. I told the guy I want to make a deal and then waved off his price with a 'should be good' - there's other things to negotiate though. We'll see how it goes. It's a 2009 blue Mazda 3 hatchback. original owners bought it from the same dealership and had it serviced there. I need to ask about accidents and whether or not it was out in the hailstorm and if they're original tires - apparently those aren't so good in winter ice.

I got all my paperwork handed in to the division office so I'm just waiting for my renewed teacher certificate and then I can be on the sub list. I visited my old high school on the way and it is so different. It's huge and there's only about 6 staff that are the same. I managed to chat with 4 of them. It's funny though cuz one of the classrooms I passed felt just like my nightmares I had for a while about being a high school student again.

Paperwork

I got a letter from the school division today. It says I have to sign and bring in a whole lot of paperwork, but then they'll put my name on the sub list! I was getting rather discouraged from everything, but maybe it will start to work out. I don't really like subbing because a day is hardly enough time to get to know the students, but I need the experience and maybe I'll hit it off with some schools and get multiple days. I really really hope I get some work. If I can get even 3 days a week it's enough to quit at the yucky job, though I might try to pick up a Saturday shift in town or something. Even better would be if it lead to something more permanent, but I guess I'll leave that to God.

Another Week

I got my Monday off, but I'm full time for the rest of the week. I feel weary. Tomorrow, Mom is picking me up and taking me out to the Berry Barn and I'm really looking forward to it. Plus, she is thinking that maybe we can go to Edmonton soonish. YAY!! Very grateful to have things to look forward to. Wishing that I was looking forward to a new job and life, but I guess those things will have to wait for God's timing.

Surviving

Well I survived my two full time weeks. I'm exhausted and will need another day of recovery. I taught my first Sunday School today. It's new and awkward, but it'll be alright. No new jobs to apply for. That's about all that's up with me.

Decision

Well, three days in a row my car refused to just get me home. I know it's too hot - the car's still okay, the model just doesn't do such hot weather. But it's making pretty clear that I need to decide whether to move and walk, stay and walk, or get a new vehicle. I really want to move, but I can't afford it - I think it would take 2 full time jobs. I don't feel right spending money on a new vehicle either. I feel like I lifted my foot to take the next step only I can't figure out where God wants me to put it down - no way I can stand like that forever. If only I could figure out what to do. I feel lost. Abandoned. I feel like someone turned out the lights and I'm not sure where the hole in the floor is. I need some time and some space, but both of those are in short supply.

Disappointment

Well, the job I wanted most closed on Tuesday and I never heard anything. A christian classroom would have been sooo amazing, even if it wasn't my preferred grade. I haven't even got a response regarding Sunday School. Starting to think they don't want me either. It's discouraging. Meanwhile, I've got 2 full time weeks at a job that I hate - it feels like a prison, there's entirely too much cussing, my desk literally stinks lately, and it feels absolutely meaningless. It also leaves me far too tired to attempt anything in the evenings. I have a quilt that Grandma started that I intend to finish (even if it's not quite her plan). I also have so much cleaning and organizing to do, as well as trying to get something together that can make my application stand out. How some people work 2 full time jobs just to keep a roof over their heads, I'll never know. I just don't have that kind of stamina.

So that's where I'm at this week. Stressed, depressed, and nothing to apply for at the moment.

Another App

Applied for another job just now. Nervousness and excitement are the current feelings. I always imagine what it could be like. It's dangerous because it makes me more disappointed when I don't get an interview/job, but it's also important because it gives me hope, keeps me going, and gets my planning just in case I get my miracle. This job is the first I've applied for in Alberta for a few years, but it would be a Christian classroom and I would just be ecstatic over that. With an asap start, I'll need more than a lot of prayer, both for getting the job and then getting started.