Well the kids go back today. I still haven't heard anything. I haven't even had a response about teaching Sunday School. Suddenly wondering if I was following God's whispers or just a whim. I am trying to be positive and at least get some work done in cleaning/purging. Just feels like a bit of a let down.
Well today is the day all the teachers go back to school, except me. I didn't even get called for an interview. I know it would've taken a miracle to get a job, but I thought maybe it was my turn for one. There was a sale on Saturday so I've got a good basic wardrobe to get me started. I told my church I'd teach Sunday School. Now I just have to figure out what else I can do to either earn money and/or improve my chances of getting an interview next time. I just don't know what to do.
... it's always the hard part. I know I don't have a very good shot, but I do want this. Unfortunately, I know that one of my references hasn't been called so my chances for an interview are very slim. It's hard to stay motivated while I'm feeling so awful, but school hasn't started yet. There's still hope for health and a job before then. Knowing that I have people who want me to succeed is definitely a blessing and I'm trying not to let the others get me down.
I filled out the application to the best of my ability and I hit that submit button. The rest is in God's hands. Even if I hear nothing I need to keep a positive attitude and purposely do things that will get me what I need, like teaching Sunday School or kids club or whatever. Getting a job would be totally scary, there's so little time left before the school year starts, but I am so much better equipped then I was the last time I tried this.
After spending years retreating within myself I feel that it is time to begin an outward journey. Suddenly I want to get back in the classroom, but with being gone so long I doubt I'll get an interview. Knowing this, I can plan to get back into it. I am going to apply for some jobs (this time around I know not to take anything I'm not ready for). If I don't get anything by the end of the month I'm going to sign up to teach Sunday school - experience and (hopefully) a reference all in one. I'll have to find out if there's any additional volunteer work or anything I can do besides subbing.
