5 more sleeps...

Until I move home for good! Yay! Well, I guess not for good since I have to move out eventually, but my time in Edam is almost over and I am grateful for that. I moved a bunch of stuff home this weeken (including my baby whom I miss already). There's still a tonne to do this week. I really shouldn't have spent so much time procrastinating over the last few months, but its tough to get cracking when you feel so overwhelmed and don't know where to start. Fortunately, I do have a couple of days. I also need to finish packing and then clean up and be ready for the van to get here for my stuff.

Still no word on a job for fall, but I have faith that it will all work out.

Please say I'm Done

The kids are definitely done. Who told them they could stop paying attention in June? All kids should be informed that school ends in July so that they know not to shut down until then. I really just wanted to cry today. Tomorrow won't be so bad as my 8/9 class will be in Saskatoon and I only have the 6s for one period. I just have to keep telling myself "11 more sleeps" until tomorrow when I can make the 11 a 10 and pretty soon that 10 will be a 1 and then I'll live at home and be praying for a job.

Yay for Fridays!!

Only a couple left :) I am so ready to be done with this school. There's so much wrong with it and I've picked up some really bad habits that I want to break immediately. Fortunately some field trip action will take care of a couple of my problem classes and I'll probably take my EDO on Friday. Doesn't look like I'll bet getting called for an interview before the end of the year anyway. I'm feeling good right now and I just hope that translates into getting through that mountain they call marking this weekend.

A Decision... for now

Well, I think I've decided that I'm not ready for this. Besides really not having the time to take such a long drive, my car desperately needs to see a mechanic before leaving the province. When I talk to the principal again I will let him know that if the other candidates don't work out then we could make schedule something for that first week in July when I could spend the week out there and really get to know the community before making my decision. Most of it sounds so wonderful, but it is so isolated. It's been an awful year and I'm only two hours from home. How much worse might it be when I'm 2 hours from a city where I don't know anyone? I will leave it in God's hands. Although, I hope his hands place me back at home for this year and maybe in Edmonton area next year.

Not Again

The last time I had an interview I wondered whether or not it was a job that I would want to accept. I now have so many days where I regret the decision I made. I now have another interview that I've been asked to go. This time the job sounds wonderful - Christian Kindergarten classroom, lots of support - but it's even further from home and civilization and I just don't know what to do. I want to stay home (or maybe go to Edmonton), but I really want to work. If I were to meet friends there it would help, but there's just no guarantees with me. Why can't God give me some easy decisions? I need help finding out what He wants and then doing that, regardless of what I want. I've been told that we get our desires from God and that's part of how we know what He wants, but what if I'm just being a fraidy-cat or selfish? How do i KNOW?