Insert cry of frustration here

I have been feeling so low and rotten the last couple of weeks. Just waiting for my teaching certificate to come and validate my existence. If I can just get some classroom experience maybe I can get a full time job and stop hearing about what poor choices I make. Today I get a call from the division office saying that they still needed my teaching certificate. That reminded that 2 1/2 weeks is waay too long for it to come through - especially when my cheque has already been cashed. So I called Sask Learning today only to find that my letter of employment was NEVER sent. GAH! So I had to go over there today and wait for them to find my application and see what happened. It was simply never sent. So I should have been on the sub list like a week ago, but my division never did their part. I'm so upset. It just feels like everything I try to do gets ruined, delayed, or ends up where I never wanted it. I just want to go back to sleep and forget about the waking world.

Guess Who's Gonna Be a Sub?

I am! Woohoo! The HR guy called today and said they just needed a void cheque and then they could send a confirmation of employment letter to Saskatchewan Learning. Of course I brought that over right away and then made sure to mail the certification fee. As soon as that Professional 'A' certificate comes in I'm to bring a copy to the division office and then I'm on that sub list! One small step in the right direction. Hopefully I'll get a fair bit of experience and then a mat leave in Dec/Jan. That would be sweet. I'm just so thrilled to finally have a bit of good news for a change (other than the birth of a beautiful Ethan Andrew - congrats to Dan & Lynn).

Well, today was the first day of classes... and I still don't have a teaching job. I went to the division office and she said that they're going through a pile of applications a foot thick. Guess I need someone to get mine bumped to the top. I did visit the vice principal at my old elementary school - he's fully supportive of me and will definitely give my name out, but I have to get on the sub list first. I have decided that sub list or no sub list I will hand in my two week's notice tomorrow. I do have faith that I will get on that list or get a contract, but either way my job blows. Half an hour after my shifts starts I just want a nice tall bottle of vodka (okay, maybe not everyday, but definitely the last few days). 6am sux!

I'm not sure where God is leading, but even if I don't have a real job during those two weeks while my parents are away - I have enough work in the house to keep me busy. Please keep on praying.

Tiredness

Went to CheryLyndon's wedding this weekend. CherylLynn looked sooo fine. What a hottie! Lucky lucky Lyndon. Was great to see a bunch of the family, though. We got in late Friday night, ate far too much, went to the Mennonite Museum in Steinbach, saw The Sound of Music (not as good as the movie), and of course went to the wedding and dance. My knees can't really handle such long drives anymore. Need stronger pain killers.

So this morning is was back to work at 6am. That's so tough. I barely slept last night and I was just exhausted and bored today. My job really is pretty boring. Every once in a while something interesting happens but even those start to become monotonous. I'm really excited for when I can quit. I just called the school division office to find out if I'm on the sub list for the fall, but I had to leave a voicemail and she should get back to me. Hopefully very soon...

Bah, phone isn't ringing. Will update once I know for sure.

Step One

Attract more cats... Yesterday some stray cat just ran up to me when I opened the door (at 5:30am) and of course I had to pet it, but then it wanted to come to work with me - even tried to get into the car. Tempting... but Veritas is the cat for me and Mom and Dad have forbidden more.

I dropped off my sub application at Prairie Spirit 206 today. Pray for me. I really want to get on the sub list so that I can get my foot in the door of this division and maybe get a mat leave that starts later in the year. I really want to teach and nothing else has panned out for me.

I cannot believe that I am working August 6 straight through to the 17th, but that is the price for booking days off for Cheryl Lynn's wedding; can't wait for that. I also can't wait for an end to 6am days, but I'm guessing that will go on at least until the end of August, unless God provides otherwise.